First...
The butterflies in my blog are gone =(
dummmmmb.

Second...
Arrrghhhh... stupid paper i had today.
What i studied, can only apply to 40% in the paper. =( *cries.
Spot also never spot properly lor.
Don't know de anyhow how pom.

Third...
There's something i need to do.
Don't TTM. Babe alway say i TTM! >.< I cannot TTM! Sighed. I need to revamp... what i am thinking, what i want. How i feel.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST...
*cheers!!! It's the last day of january! Yippeeeeee! February coming. I will get pocket money.
Chinese new year coming. Can get hongbaos!
Yay!

REJOICE!


Don't mind me. I am insane. I am going bonkers. I hate examinations =( But there is nothing i can do. We have to take it.
*SURRENDER!
My legs and hands are aching. yesh. BADMINTON! It's been a long time since i last exercise lor, and this is what i got. ACHES.
I am freaking tired too =( not enough sleep.
When your body aches you feel sleepy...
My logic.

Zzz...

So GUILTY! OMG.
I went shopping with my cousins ( Edmond and Edwin), Pei Fang jie, Zhi Ming Da ge, followed by a game of badminton that lasted 2 hours at Feng Shan C.C. It's been a long time since i last exercise, and i suck at badminton.
Craps.

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They are a bunch of funny people!!! So cute.
It's such a small world. Hard to explain la.




Got to MUG MUG MUG tomorrow.
Jia you! Ganbatte ne!

Supper anyone?

It's 12 am, saturday.
Guess what? I just cooked supper for my goody brother.
Craps. Maggiee mee and fried eggs.
Gosh. I was studying and he complained that he was hungry.
( I was thinking in my mind. Jialat, sure ask me cook.)
Ya.
Indeed.
Who asked him to be my brother?
I've got only one brother, if i don't dote on him, who will. Right?
I love him to bits mans.
I am such a nice sis. =P

_______________________________

I am still thinking.
Prays hard that nothing will happen to my great grandma.

Arrrrrrrrrr. craps.
I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY!

Okay, 10 times, should be enough.
I can't get my mind straight on the notes, it's drifting from what it should. =X
I left 3 days to chiong 3 modules.
I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. I CAN MAKE IT. =) YES I CAN!

MARVELLOUS!

My buddy switched the phone to silent mode. For damn bloody 5 hours he never check his handphone.
IDIOT!

My mood is HIGH and LOW.
Moody.
Don't know why. Sometime of the month? P-M-S-Y.

I hate the feeling.
It haunts me.
It hurts me. Mentally. Crapssss.
Hopefully i don't affect anyone out there.

Babe!!! How!!! Moody again! =X

I am so worried for my buddy. I smsed him no replies, called him no replies... since 6+pm. Sheeesh. What happened?!

Got trashed in minesweeper. Lost like million times. Who played more than me? Won 35 times, Lose 129 times. I am mad.

It's just one of those pre-term break siansation i have. Wah lao eh! Super sian. 7 weeks since school start, the very 1st sunday i stayed a home. I can't believe it!.
Craps, i thought i should be at the mall or something lidat. Broke actually, that explains *ahem where i am now. I shall not continue the topic on being Broke. I will get lotsa complains saying that i spent too much, and should start saving. *Sighed.
Study break. I don't like study break!!! You'll hear me complain, it's getting boring at home! It just started and i am already feeling the siansationssssss........
I want to go out and play! Shop! Chill! Lim kopi~
Craps.
CNY is coming~
Got excuse to go shopping right after my CTs.
But i bought my chinese new year clothes already.
Nonetheless, window shopping makes me happy too...
Ay, getting out of the house and hanging out with friends is great enough! Hahaha!


Common test sucks lei. Damn. Damn. Damn. -_-"'
Why must test?!
Tests NVM.
BUT why 3 days straight!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! TMD!
Got SCM on MONDAY 31st , QLA on TUESDAY 1st, PMK on WEDNESDAY 2nd.
What's worst?
Mostly all early morning. Freak.
I want to complain~!~!
Argh.

- Signs off.

Was talking on the phone with my friend last night. Actually to listen to his problems. I treat that as minor problem, but to him, it's serious.
Girls and Guys seriously have different perceptives towards relationship.
It's funny.
Girls think this way, guys interpret it in another.
It's the way how we look at things.

Oh, he used to like me, but now we are close friends.
Both of us believed that there can be platonic relationship between a girl and a guy. Why not?
It's a good thing that we are close friends now.
I appreciate him as a kind, sweet, funny, caring, thoughtful friend.
After so long, i realised very good qualities of him, he is different from other guys that i know. Exceptionally different.

Well, well, if you see this (*i know you will be reading), dude i want to tell you good luck and don't think so much la.
I want to slap you when i see you. lol. joking.



The way how we look at certain things. It can cause great misunderstandings, when we interpret to one another. You'll cause serious miscommunications.
We are not living in a world with only ourself. We got people around us. Those who influences and affects you in your daily life. Be it good or bad, we need friends. We can't do things alone, it's not a one man show thingy. Sometimes people do get on our nerves. We forgive and forget. Bastards and bitches can go to hell. Hack care them.
We are just struggling to survive. Some enjoys the luxuries in life...
I just want a simple life.
But do we have a choice?


Aww. wait, what the hell am i talking? It just came out of my mind.

I need sleep. good nites.

I'm no angel but I can make you smile

Do Re Me Fa...

*points at Lowina... "Qi guai bu qi guai!!!!"

Before eatingggg..

Yummmy!

Rachel. The dog . Me

Never too old to act cute. or rather stoned

What a mess!

Belated birthday babes.

Group picture~

Hanwen . The FUNNY one.

Lowie the cute one

Lixin sweetie pie.

Birthday babes and a gay! hahha

Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..........

DUDES!

My pretties!

Grumpy PIG

Kris =)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... STOP feedin me! I am getting fatter already!

Tired ...


Celebrated the peeps' birthday! It was hell loads of fun!
Before that we had "NP open house duty" .. hmmmm... *rolls eyes.
Talked non-stop, sound like a radio... -_-
Early morning had LCOM test. *sheesh. eeks. >.< Enough said.

To Li Xin: Don't give up, try harder next time k... things are not perfect. You got to make it perfect =)

*Got loads of pictures, to be uploaded soon!

[ What's worth. drifting already... ]

Seems like eveyone is in a high spirit today. WHY?
Basically we only had an hour lesson. Yesh, 10am - 11am. Nope, it actually started at 10.30am and ended at 11pm. A bus right to school for 1 hrs, 30mins lesson and another hour back home. -_-"'
Enough said.

The weather is extremely cooling today, no idea why.
It really helped to lift up that mood.
It's like .... hmmmm... soothing? Calm, as cool as a cucumber.
But the thought of tests spoils everything.
Craps.
UTM, LCOM.
Where should i start?

My new year resloutions should have some adjustments. Hmmmmm... *rolls eyes*

I visited my grandparents yesterday. Well, they are getting old already. Grandma walks very slowly. I think i am not fillal enough, i visit them once a week. Seriously not enough, compared to my dad who visits them every night without fail, no matter what. Monday to sunday, i have school for first 5 days, weekends i am free but i end up in the shopping malls. I visit them 1 hour a week... its like nothing?! But my grandparents were happy and glad enough to see me. They look after me to the age of 7 since baby. Now, all they want is company, someone to listen to them talk and all...
My grandma told me some unhappy stuffs, she was quite upset about it... about my uncle's family. They moved away, and only pop by once every two months. That's her eldest son who used to stay next door from her. There was some unsettled disputes between my 1st uncle's wife and 3rd uncle's wife.
I find it really silly.


Grandma told me about what she wants to see in me. I promised myself i will make it come true. Am i able to fulfilled it?
Questioning myself again and again...
What grandma wants for me, is what i want for myself too.
I will make it happen!
I will visit my grandparents more than once a week!
I promise i will do so...

I feel 19 now. The thinking matured too.
It's abit cliche.
But... i still have to say...
Treasure all the people around you.
Do not regret... when things happened and its not the way you want it to be.
We often regret at the point... you realised that you hurt someone... you lose someone... things are not the way you want it to be...
And very often its too late.

You should just go for what your heart tells you.
In family, relationship, school, life, carreer ... blah blah.
Opportunity don't come by that often as you wish it could.
lalala...
Sounded so cliche.

I am saying all these... BUT...
What about myself?
Hmmmm....

I think he is SHUAI.

I got my CD finally! Thanks to Zhiwei~ my very belated christmas present, anyway is the thoughts that count. haha.


Declare BROKE. But i guess, i hope, i'll be rich soon xD !
Wah, impossible lei, unless money drops from the sky~~~ ( i must be dreaming!!!)
I win 4D or TOTO la! BUT, in the first place i don't buy. -_-'''
oOOOoooooOOo ... should start saving next month. That's the most practical way.
SPEND LESS, SAVE MORE!
This shall be my motto! My drive~ Hehe.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LI XIN *HUGS.

Was in a terrible foul mood.
Now am okie!
Everyday is a NEW day... I got to pick myself up and learn new things everyday. Do great things, have dreams that am going to fulfill.

Lowie: Sis, am okie now, no worries! =)
Lin: Hey girL, always so sweet, thanks for your support.
Junior-Senior: Love you! Babe, you are alway here for me. How am i supposed to thank you! Really appreciate =)
Benjamin xiao di: Thanks for listening to me.

Thank God for all these people in my life...


Went to watch "Meet the Fockers", laughed my ass off. Got everything out of that tight squeezing space. I am okie! =)
Walked around, no shopping this time! Am broke.
Headed to marina for steamboat with people whom i don't know. It's my friend's friends la. They are funny people.
It was great...
Had some messy thoughts sorted out...

Hmmmm, i already got plans for Hari Raya Haji... so fast.
BUT, before that i got tests. One on tuesday, the other on wednesday. Wednesday one is a TOUGH one. I MEAN IT. DAMN. So much to study... chapters 1-6!
School just sucks, when did we ever like it?




[ - Everyday is a new day, there's no time to waste]

The sweet and pretty girls

Registration peeps, waiting for the event to start

The fun ones =P

The start of the event itself. Ribbon cutting

Sub-commies and Me. Thank you!

Kim and Me

The cuties. funkies.

The IDOL in the centre. We love you! lol.

Last of all. US!

Many thanks to all who attended and support MDE IDOL 2005.

Thanks to the lecturers, those who bought tickets to support.


To sub-commies:

Siew wai, Melissa, Sherri, Jane: Thank you girLs for the effort you've put it! =)

ShinLon: Thanks for helping lowie all the way tru the whole event.

Yaofeng: Xie le! Ben si lei. You brought lots of fun to us... sometimes you need to be serious abit more k. Don't keep playing, i'll knock you on the head. =x

Kim: GirL! You look sweet yesterday! The guys got to see the other side of you. Your effort have paid off! Thank you so much.

Ben: You have been a great sport. In our eyes, we know you've tried your best. Let's take complaints and critism openly. We accept, we give thanks, we improve on the way. Don't blame yourself for things that are already done. You got to believe in yourself. When people critise at you, let them be. If they dislike you, they make it worst, we'll let them be. We can't stop them from saying all these. Unless they can prove, they can do a better job then you, or i think they should just SHUT UP their big freakin mouth. If you keep on pondering the negative things they say and worrying about it, seriously, you have no time to love yourself! Xiao di! No worries, great job =))))) You live for yourself, not to please them.

JieYing: Hey girL! You looked great! Good job being the emcee. You got to believe in yourself that you can, don't be afraid of failures. You lose, you gain. You fail, you pick yourself up and stand up again... you surely can do it! No worries at all k? Thank youuuu...

Special thanks to Diyana, thank u for helping too =)

Andy, Seetoh, Lowie: There's so much i want to say. Great memories, happy working with you 3. THANK YOU!






Love ya all! Thanks!

My dark rings are geting worst. Olay aint effective. DUMB. I have been so lazy and not using it regularly. It's my fault actually.

So DUMB. I forgot to bring my pencil case to school. And i got tests today. 2 tests straight in a row. ( I hate this! ) It totally don't feel right. I can live without it, same to my organiser, Hp, wallet. Sorry to trouble you peeps to lend me your stuffs. Thanks xin, lowie, rach and seetoh.
I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. I will remember to bring my pencil case to school. ( 10 times, enuff said )

School is getting B-O-R-I-N-G. Yesh and i mean it. And what's worst? Some people are just getting on my nerves! Shucks. Freaking hell. Full of craps and total contradicts.

I will CHILL. No worries, am cool ;)

It's raining continuosly the whole day for the past 3 days.
What a wet new year.

Countdown was great and i reached home at 2am. Thanks my parents for fetching me home so late.
Woke up as "EARLY" as 11am. Rotted.
Went to meet my buddies, julia and hanping to pass the latter's his xmas pressie. YAY. XMAS pressie. Abit late though but its the thoughts that counts.

Went to meet sweetie at bugis. First time i went out with her.
It's a great day, a beautiful new year. A carefree shopping.
It feels like SUNDAY today, no idea why is this so. I thought i got to go school tomorrow... BUT wait isn't today Saturday?! I don't why to start school that fast... am in a happy festive mood. haha.

Everything is about MDE IDOL.
When i shop i think about MDE IDOL, i walk i think about MDE IDOL, i watch tv i also think about MDE IDOL.
It's abit frustrating. I don't have peace. I keep thinking... am i too excited... or am i worried?

Enlightened me ...
Now i am thinking about MDE IDOL....

Yeah! It's new year! Bye 2004, Happy 2005.
I just got a new hair cut and colour. (=

My new year resolutions:

• Enjoy peace and happiness.
• Study hard.
• Stop procrastinating.
• To stay single. ( sounds familiar. kimmy said that too.)
• Live my life with no regrets.

2004 have been a year where i learnt alot of things. Failures, sucess, family, school, friends and life. You lose, you gain. You love, you hate. You fail and you learn.

It's all beyond words.

I wish for good health for my family and friends. May all of you enjoy peace and happiness!

The girls.. no guys pics will be posted here.

nice hair. nice eyes. lol

DHL lol.

Awww. so sweet

Group picture

If you can see that figure.Try figuring. We are Raffles wannabesss... get it?

mess at coffee bean