I believe by Yolanda Adams (Honey Soundtrack)

They said you wouldn't make is so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it's been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…

(Chorus:)
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant (Oh yea)
I believe I'll dance
I believe I'll grow real soon and (That's why)
That is what I do believe

Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe

(Chorus:)I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)
I believe I will
I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (ooo)
That is what I do believe
Whoa oa oa YEA…

(Music break)
Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it's not for me
I won't give up
I'll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo

(Chorus 2x)
I believe I can
I believe I will (I can)
I believe I know my dreams are real (I got strength)
I believe I'll chant
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (watch me watch me watch me)
That is what I do believe (I do believe in me)

I believe I canI believe I will (oh yea)
I believe I know my dreams are real
I believe I'll chant
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and
That is what I do believe (I do believe! yayeeyay)



This is for everyone who have been working real hard with me.
MDE OEI~

It's a great show! I love it.
Caught it with Kim, Jy, Yf and Benj. I love the show, although i did not watch the part one.
While waiting for the rest, as usual (haha), me and jy done a donation! We each donated $5. Ya, to this family with a daughter that needs a operation for her eyes. Its reported in the Newpaper. Well, "hao xing you hao bao". Hopefully.

Thanks to all who are concerned, very much appreciated. Thank you all so much. =)

Btw, my handphone line is cut off. I can't reply smses nor call out.
If anyone want to contact me, you can still call my HP, the incoming calls are still available. Please let it ring for some time before you decide to hang up.
Thank you.

This is it ...

It's only going to make me stronger.
So cranky. Lazy afternoon. 3 hours of mahjong w/o cash with my 2 girls. Just talking and chatting with them my problems. I feel much better, theres solution to everything, i always believe this. Compare to 1 of them, i might be more fortunate. Compare to many out there, i might be living way better. Shall not complain.
Tomorrow is just another day. Hope everything is well. I wished.
Thanks for those listening ears. =)
Pardon me for those Fuck words, thats anger.

Single

When people ask me wheres your boyfriend. I reply dont have lah...
You no boyfriend? Why no boyfriend?
NO means NO lah. Still got why meh?
Wah lao eh.

And then …
My mum did tried to hint me a little. I am like 19 … still no boyfriend?
YA, dont have lah.
(Actually I have failed r/s, but am I supposed to tell her? NO WAY will I let her know.)



So Ive been trying to think…
WHY NO BOYFRIEND AR?



First,
I am 172cm tall, big built.
Many guys that I know are relatively shorter, smaller size than me. Guys wont want a girl who is taller and bigger in size than them. It makes them feel inferior. I have guy friends who tell me that they feel inferior by me. Intimidating. Gosh. What am I supposed to do? I can’t do anything. Those guys are best friends with me, ya, that’s all.



Secondly,
I am unattractive...
But, at least I dont look like her.

Wo de yi ge xin, muackmuack.
Xian kay yi ge ren, muack muack.


Lastly,
Once bitten twice shy? More than once, well …


Unexpectedly,
I am DUMB. Yeah. DUMB.
So dumb that, i am so insensative to know.



Or maybe, most probably,
Blame it on my pickness in other words which sounds much more better, perfectionalismlogy.
Sounds chim? Its just perfectionist. Ya, I know nothing is perfect, no one is perfect.
But, when you have this thought in mind, a standard that you set, its hard to get rid.


So, if you look like ...



Or



maybe ...



Preferberly,



Okay, please apply.
Right now!






I am just kidding. So dumb.




What's the critera?
Height. He must also be 175cm above please, 180cm will be good.
Bigger build, so he doesnt look like a bamboo that will fly away anytime.
The most important is ...
Chemistry. Being able to click, and have non-stop conversations with the person.
And the physical, i will never ever get bored looking at his face 24/7/365.
Nice smile with dimples is a real bonus. I mean it... right babe?


It sound like ... some recruitment ads.
Cliche.




But right now,
Although i have someone in mind, but then, ive let go.
So i am enjoying every bit of my single life, and loving it.


The rest is up to fate. If it comes, we'll see =)


So dont ask me again... WHY NO BOYFRIEND AR?
Thank you.

To lose what is precious to you?


or


To NEVER have what you wanted?



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I just feel like an idiot.
Well.
I give up.

C.O.C.O.N.U.T

That's my group name! The others are ze7en, steady.
I had FUN. FUN. FUN.
Those student leaders are CRAZY. HYPER.
But it's only the beginning, i still got lots and lots of thing not done yet! Jiayou! With the help of my committee and the student leaders, we will make this camp a sucess.
It's not only fun, but a learning journey.
I will play, have fun... others stuffs aside.

MDE OIE.

We can make it! =)



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I am still living in fantasy. Fantasy does not exist. Letting go the hopes that i've clinging to. I like the way it is now. I should enjoy my life with no commitments on r/s. I am contented enough. I should be, with friends.


//


Nothing is more important than MDE FOC at this moment.

Thank you all for today. =)

Lost.

I brought this upon myself , no shouldn't be.
It's my learning process.
We will have FUN.
We have one another to hang on to.
We will SURVIVE, no matter what happens.
Nothing's gonna bring me down.


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How sad is this.
My best friend doesn't want to reply my msg. Okay, she told me she needs some time alone, but i really hope to be there for her.
I know she needs me. I need her too.
It's so depressing.
I am utterly lost for words. I am worried.
Just where are you?



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Thanks for the people who are there.
Very much apppreciated.

Isn't it true.

Yay! I don't have to hear "Isn't it true" for 2 times a week, 2 hours a day... NO MORE. WAHAHA.
And i don't have to see that stupid old grumpy fat face of his anymore.
Rejoice!

It's true...
I passed my examinations!

End

Everything is settled.
-World peace.

But prepare for the worst!
Wahhahhaha!

This is how orange and colourful my bag looked like.

Never in my life, i communicated with so many people, till now...
i've got no voice.

Kimmy is down with fever. Take care girl.
Kim, Jieying, Benjamin, Yaofeng, Irwin, BoonHuat, Zhiwei, Sherri, Siew Wai, Kim wan,
Please take good care of yourself! Rest well, and drink lotsa water!
Next is going to be a long week.
Gosh!
Jia You!

The weather is freaking HOT, i hope it rains.

The peeps are here for mahjong later, but i feel like sleeping =/

Friendship

My friend told me about her own experience on friends today.
Friendship requires nothing in return.
It cannot be measured, not in terms of anything, money?
NO. NO WAY.

When you give someone something, you expect something back in return.
When you give a person a present worth of $100, you expect that on your birthday you get something of the same price back to you...
This is not friendship.
They are neither your friends.
Why does it have to be like this?
Can't people give willingly?
With you heart..
Just the thoughts that really counts.
In your lifetime, you might only have 1 TRUE friend, 1 someone who is TRUE, giving you willingly, sacrificing for you...
the person might be your husband other than your parents.
Well, girlfriend/boyfriend ... i don't think so.

Maybe i am still not age eligible to talk so much on this...
We always have problems with friends... who don't.
Those who stays in your life, are those who are call good friends? Perhaps.
In years down, then you will realise what's not what's yes.

I am happy with what i have now...
If you want to chose people, people will chose you.
It just goes round and round.
If it's not meant to be... so be it.





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Matriculation!
There's lots of WEIRD people here, OMG, some are our juniors to be.
There's this Bitch............. we can't stand her. And that bastard brother of hers.
Wanna say no more.
Had a great laugh over this issue. Stupid people who don't use their brains to think, keep a big fuss out of everything and uses vulgarities......................
OH. Crazy.






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Everyone is tired, so am i.
Rest early.

Listen to the heartbeat.

Today is a great day! It's funny though.
Busy with FOP, matriculation and the same time interaction, snacking, crapping.
Jia you to all, we can do it!
The camp will be a success! I am anticipating it! YEAH!

I am missing my sis! Lowina!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH! =)
Shall sms her tommorrow.

Lovely day i've got.
I am looking forward to tommorrow.

I am happy with my life now, although it's hectic.
The coming week is going to be worst!
But then HEY! I made use of everyday that i have. To the MAX.
Everyday is packed with events, programmes.
Tough jobs, but fulfilling.
Spent alot of time with those people whom i seldom get to interact with.
Camps are coming my way.
Anticipating it!
=)
Spend my time with my buddies too.


Well!
Moviessss! Here i come.
Retail Theraphy!
Girls talk!



To all having their IAP tommorrow onwards, good luck! Best wishes.

Year 3 Prom
*not my prom.

The prom at pan pacific was great!
Everyone looked so pretty, handsome, all dressed up for the occasion.
The food was not bad, but i love the fun! Dancing... wahahaha.
Cool. So funny.
I hope everyone enjoyed themselves!
It was great.

Congrats to Li Shan for being the prom queen!
And the prom king ... Shen Long.
Congratulations to the 1st MDE Prom Queen and King! =)

Good Luck to all of them for their future endeavour.


*Below are some pictures we took.
P.S: Ah Boon, thanks for your camera =)

The picture we all love!

The ladies. On the right is Mrs soon.

Us and the director.

I like this.

A group picture. Mr Tan, Seetoh, Me, Jieying.

This is me. I don't usually dress in this way.

Mr Low: My SUPER ONZ Lecturer!

Preparation: Jieying and Me

Crapppppppy..

I went to bugis and suntec today.
Walked around, planning what to buy for a buddy of mine, but seems like i am looking at stuffs for myself!
Damn suay! I saw a bag at Mango, i like it alot, i didn't buy. When i went back an hour later, it's gone!
Before i went home, i went to city link "Flash and Splash" i wanted to look at Roxy bags. Before this i went to the washroom, a minute later at 9.15pm. The shop was closed!
Oh craps, not fated at all, like what my buddies said.
SUAY.
HUMPH!







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I need a haircut soon, the sooner the better. I want to dye my hair too, they way i want it to be!
Retail Therapy sounds good.






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Wo de yi ge xin, muack muack,
Xian kay yi ke ren, muack muack.

Damn hiliarious, ru hua.
Omg, how on earth does she have to look this way? When she can get herself make-up in a prettier manner.
I can't help but laugh. If you have seen her show, you should know what i am talking about.
Darn crappy and digusting at the same time.
She made my day.
WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Gosh, i miss that sis so much.
When will she be back?! 4th May.
She just smsed me yesterday! Okay, hope she enjoy her trip back there.
Sis, if you get to see this!
Just to let you know, i miss you. =)

*Ahem
"I aint LES"




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I am in shape!
Round is a shape.

That's very lame.

I am not human

Had a meeting at town today.
Went shopping with valerie, jieying, seetoh and zheng cong.

We were at FOX. All of us were standing outside the changing room waiting for jieying and valerie to try the tops.
I was standing behind the table where the sales assistant pack their clothes.
Apparently this lady mistook me as the sales assistant.
She looked at me, gaving me the signal that she want to try the clothes, then i shaked my head, wanting to let her know that i am NOT the sales assistant.
So she said... "NI BU SHI REN" (Direct transaltion: YOU ARE NOT HUMAN") when she wanted to tell me "NI BU SHI NA GE MAI YI FU DE REN" ( YOU ARE NOT THE SALES ASSISTANT") Damn hilarious, i ain't human. I see.
Goodness, i was laughing my ass off.
DAMN PAISEH LOR.

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Enough of i am not human. So angry with that woman.
I had a great time laughing thou my legs are aching like mad now. shruckssssss....

I got a whole long list of shopping items!
Whatever i don't like... i feel its digusting, "ER XIN" la. Don't ask me why, thou i know that skirt is very niceeeee, but i think ... erm, i don't suit that kind of skirt.
Hehe.
I am going crazy already.

Retail Theraphy rocks! =)
I am waiting for the next trip as promise!

Useless as it seems. I am so useless. Nothing but a burden.

I went to look for job today, i want to work. I want to support myself.
But i can't. The priorities that i have in school doesnt allow me to.
I hope to give up everything.
I want to surrender.

I need a pillar to lean on. No matter how independent i can be.

Over

My nightmare is over! I am so happy! Overjoyed! Words can't express how i feel.
I had sleepless nights, thanks to my kan-chiongness~
Yeah! It's over, finally over!


I WANT TO PLAY! SHOP! ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS. I AM SO SO SO SO EXCITED ABOUT IT!


But, i need to replenish all those sleep i have lost.